As I delve deeper into my manifesting practice and work alongside my clients to help them toward achieving inner vibrance, I am learning SO MUCH about myself!
This last week especially has opened my eyes even wider to how I work.
I set a really REALLY BIG MUTHAF**KIN goal and I gave myself NO option of backing out. That goal was to manifest a large amount of money, more than I've ever had in my lifetime at one point.
I declared to myself that I would achieve this goal whether I had to beg, fight, steal or kill for it (hmmm, maybe not the steal or kill part :P)
I promised myself that this time I would say YES, there was no other option, Only YES, and I would take huge risks to get this. I would stop my life for this if I had to, I would take 12 steps back for this, I would sail on a god damn life boat across the pacific ocean with a Bengal tiger on board!
Well as powerful and self fulfilling as that sounds, there is always a very long way to fall from a peak like that..
As we start to give ourselves permission, we also unintentionally set off the self sabotage that goes along with it.
"You don't deserve this."
"You still won't be good enough anyway."
"As if you could be successful."
"There is nothing special about you Elise."
I spent a few good days desperately trying to soothe my demons with self love exercises, meditation, affirmations, journalling, visualizing - NOTHING was working! And nothing does when you're in a state of anxiety, desperation and lack.
Then I spent some hours pouring my heart out - out loud, on paper, to my man, my mum, myself and to the universe. I am SO blessed to have wonderful caring people in my life (some of who I have never actually met in person yet) who are there to support and listen to me when I need it.
Then I slept.
I awoke the next day with a lighter heart and mind and instead of repeating the previous day like I always had in the past, I decided to try something different.
So you know what I did? I went to the beach 3 days in a row.
Yup I went and had fun. I surfed big waves, I made sand castles, I went for beautiful walks along the shore and found shells, sea life and hidden caves, I climbed a cliff and I basked in the sun for hours.
And do you think I thought about my money probs or ways to sabotage myself even more? Sure, it crossed my mind every now and then, BUT, I was too busy being present and enjoying myself to stay on the subject.
A huge thing I've figured out about manifesting is there are two ways you can go about getting what you want.
1) Discipline yourself to think about what you want, what it will bring, how it will make you feel and what the possibilities are. Visualize it. NOT the lack of it, not the fact you don't have it yet or you need it desperately NOW.
and if that's still to hard because you keep switching back to 'not having it' try this:
2) Get off the subject and do something else that WILL bring you happiness i.e the beach was my place of least resistance. The universe doesn't read words or pleas, it reads energy and vibration. So if you've got something you want, but it's messing you up because you need it now, think of something else that lights you up. Then and only then will you be vibrating at the level you need to be to manifest the other thing you want!
And wanna know the craziest thing?
Since I've been able to get off the subject and drop resistance to it all, I have been manifesting crazy opportunities for more cash, free money webinars, courses, downloads, meditations and visualizations. Even my mother gave me a fantastic exercise! And best of all, MONEY!
So after all my asking and pleading with the universe "Please, help me.", "Send me abundance.", "Send my the tools I need." Once I dropped the resistance, the universe was able to answer IN WAVES!!!!
You can apply these two simple tools into any part of your manifesting process. I did it a few months ago in my relationship and within a week my relationship transformed into an astounding insecure free partnership. That was a pattern I'd had since I was 15, changed within a week! Wow!
So my dear, what is something you're having a shit house of a time trying to manifest at the moment?
Is it a new job? A relationship? Money? Security? New friends? A house? A car? A better mindset?
Whatever it is, try one of the two tools above and I guarantee you will manifest what you really want very quickly!